We have a nutcase among us...

[graphicsgirl]

...It's me. I have mental problems.


When I say mental problems, I don't mean the type of 'crazy and random' mental problems most of us fangirls have (even though I have that too). I mean actual mental illness type illness. I got diagnosed a couple of weeks back, I have intrusive thoughts. It's sorta similar to OCD or something like that. It's not as bad as it was...god, at one point I was so scared I ended up self harming with a make up brush (ramming it into me arm until it left a mark) and considering suicide. Sometimes I don't get the intrusive thoughts at all but then they'll just come back. I'm hopefully gonna get treatment but it could take a while. But it's annoying too, cause the doctors must have sent a message to my school cause my form teacher keeps pulling that "if you need help you know where to come" stuff and all that. I occasionally get emotional breakdowns at school, if my fellow pupils ask what's up I just tell them I'm in a mood or something cause I know I'll be a laughing stock if I tell them I'm mental. It's just really annoying, I get these voices making dumb theories and stopping me having an opinion on half the things I do!

And I'm not telling you guys this to get attention, all this is true. In fact, it hurts more to talk about it cause whenever I do, I get all shaky and jumpy and just makes me think about it more. I'm pretty normal when I don't talk about it, by normal I mean my usual self, you know "Neopets forever, Kanrik is hawt! Ninjas are cool, Spandy rocks!" all that sort of thing. I just thought it be best for yers all to know in case I slump into a depression or sommat.

*sigh* So if you guys wanna stop speaking to me then I understand.

[Spaghetti]

Noez, I don't wanna stop speaking to you! D: You're the only British person I know on the internet (aside from my friends) and it's always nice talking about British stuff no-one will probably get. XD

Hope you'll be alright soon. I was depressed too, even thought that was like, back in Year 7. God, I still remember everything, it was awful... I remember reading this report the school wrote and apparently, my mom said she wanted "the old Laura (me) back". At that point I felt like crying.

I'm mostly OK now (even though I still have the odd lapse). Hope you'll be OK too.

[Deli]

You're, like, one of my best friends GG! I'd never wanna stop talking to you!

And don't worry, you're not alone. I start to get those thoughts sometimes, too. But if I talk to mother or just put my faith and God and pray, it all just leavs. Maybe you should pray. ^^

[peaches2217]

As you know, I suck with words. BUT I want you to know that I (and of course the rest of us) will always, always, ALWAYS be here for you! We love ya, GG! ^^

[graphicsgirl]

Thanks for the support guys, you don't know how much it means to have great friends like you

[peaches2217]

WE LOVE YA TOO, GG!!! *glomp*

[creamblush]

I unno wot to say sept hope you'll be aright.